COOLMIRA/confession | Posted by coolmira 2010/03/02 17:33

I am "I", not "i"

22 hrs at SFO

Around midnight

A security guard riding a bike at SFO.
I envied him.
saw LDS missionaries were passing through the hall.
got eye contact with one of them. so cute smile.
A woman who looked like Arabian asked me, r u using Wi-fi?
I smiled, nodding my head instead of saying "Yes"
I saw a variety of people like pilots, not pretty flight attendants, kids, chinese people, a few koreans passed.

2 a.m.

She came back to me again, she said she is from Srilanka and living in Calgary. Her destination is Seoul like me but hers is Singapore
Airline. Because of cancer and visiting Yong Dong Severance Hospital.

I feel good now, alittle bit scared of too quiet airport though, sitting on the chair.

A guy said, do you need sth like water or soda?
I said, I already had. thanks. do I look like homeless when he saw me? weird for me.
he kept asking about my country code and telling the meaning of "Mira" in spanish is "look".
How many times I heard the meaning of Mira in spanish...
getting boring...to hear...
he was leaving , telling me "stay here,I'll be back an hour and half.
uh-oh...

I'm a witch, not a homeless!
getting sleepy...sleepy...
I had better go to hotel though, I couldn't go and I can't go still.
makes me more nervous and scared of sth new I didn't prepare and expect.
But bodies are getting exhausted...
help.....help......

I thought I have my own way to enjoy my own style freedom.
The freedom I called makes people who were watching me a deep sigh sometimes.
looked like my laziness, at the same time it was my own spare space.
one of my dull habits, but I love it.
making me stay 22 hrs more, SFO caught me.
22hrs!

내가 소중히 생각하는 나만의 자유라고 부르는 것이.
때로는 보는 사람을 한숨짓게 하고
게으름이었던 동시에 여유였던
나의 무딘 습성하나가
나를 샌프란시스코 공항에 22시간을 더 기다리게 했다.
22시간!의 의미는.

지금쯤이면 한국 도착했을 지금 이시간,
11시간째다.
샌프란 현지 시간 자정을 조금 넘었다.
뱅기 놓치구 유나이티드 에어라인가서
수퍼바이저까지 4명, 얘기를 했지.
졌다.
쏠렉공항에서 샌프란 공항 날씨탓에 모든 비행기 지연되니
비행기 지연되도 이상없을거라던 유나이티드 여직원 너!
너한테 각서 받아왔어야 했어.
샌프란 착륙한다는 방송은 1시 54분.
내 한국행 뱅기 이륙시간은 1시 30분.

전광판 보면서 97번 게이트로 향하던 중...
flight closed
진짜 가버린거야.
승객 명단에 나 있구
쏠렉에서 발권했다는 것도 알 수 있는 인간들이
손님하나때메 250명 기다리게 할수없다며
정확히 30분만에 날아가버렸다.
250 passenger vs mira
250대 1의 존재는 뭔가!
what is my existence?
Yu-na made 4.5million peoples' existence know to the world.
but ...I.... I.... 250 vs me...

연아는 4천 500만의 존재감을 세계에 알린 1명이구.
난...난...250대 1도 못해본 나는...

유나이티드 항공직원들과 4시간에 걸친 말 씨름 끝에...
괴물같은 것들..
에너지 소진되면 다른 것들이 뎀비구
복식으로 덤비구... 비겁한 것들. 

눈물나지 당근..
내 눈물이 그래도 내 맘을 녹여주드라.
유타에서 당장 뱅기타고 날아오지 않는 윌이.
밥 먹으라고, 호텔 가서 자라고 말하는 윌이 섭섭했는데.
엄청난 바램이었다는 거..
학교에 이멜로 연락하고 전화안했다는 비판 들으면서
윌한테 고맙게 생각하게 됐어.
좀 더 잘 해주고, 편하게 해주고 올껄. 미안해 윌.
I should have been nicer and should make him comfortable.
Someday if u have a chance to visit Korea, I will be nice to you more.
But you are already better than me in many areas. miss you and envy Dan.
이번에 한국오면 내가 잘 할께. 요리는 너가 잘하니까 니가 하구.

사랑하는 윌,
방에 쳐박혀서 혼자 이런 저런 상상하면서
싸이코 연애 fcg였던 거 용서해줘.
사랑해 많이.
많이 보고 싶어.
아직 니가 밟고 서있는 미국땅이여서인지
아직도 너랑 같은 마을에 있는 거 같다. 

보고 싶다 많이.

 manicotti


Belgian Waffle House

Pork Rice Egg Batter

  A pretty girl, actually pretty picture in a lucky day

Will wearing Marc Jacobs Jacket
I really loved this Jacket!
the color of Jacket looks like khaki
you deserve you are cocky
you are super, cool and awesome for me. 

* 윌이 케익이나 쿠키가 아닌 밥, 아니 음식을 해줘야 한다고

마니꼬티를 만들어왔었다.

정말 고마워 해야 할 당시에는 "당연하지!" 라고 생각하고

이렇게 뒤에서야 눈물나게 고맙고 사랑스럽다 윌이.

 

* 도시락데이 화욜에 준비했던

돼지고기+쌀+부침가루+계란으로 만든 동그랑땡?^^

맛있었다고 말해줘서 고마웠어.

 

* 벨지언 와플!

윌의 절친, 댄과 윌의 스페셜 레스토랑, 소박하다 못해 초라해보이기까지 하는. 하지만..왜 일까? 이 레스토랑은 또 가고 싶어지게 한다. 윌과 나로 하여금. 그랬다 정말.

좋았다.

윌이 이 사진에 이 말 해달래.

사진에 기분이 안좋아보이게 나온 윌은 사진이 그렇게 보인거라구.

자기는 나랑 있어서 너무 행복했다고. 꼭 적어 달라고.

 

보고 싶다 지금쯤 쌔근 쌔근 자고 있을 너. 많이 보고 싶다.

I feel like taking off burden clothes now.
so good to feel and think some stuff in my life.
That's my name!

I think I'm so cute to myself!
yes I am.^^

origin                                       sanskrit
meaning                                   prosperous

origin                                       slavonic
Meaning                                   great; famous

origin                                        latin
meaning                                   astonishing

origin                                         English
meaning                                    variant of Myra


5 a.m.



too sleepy now..
I have to be awake 6 more hrs.
too sleepy...I think in an airplane I'm going to sleep whole time.
toooooo sleepy.......
dizzy..headache..feeling disgusting alittle...5 30 in the morning in slc..
But 4 40 am
my brain and body automatically fall down again and again......
Someone saw me!   ><;

7 a.m.

too cold.
got one more hot chocolate.
need to brush my teeth at least without taking a shower.
fcg at San Francisco Airport as a homeless stayed up all night.


8 24 a.m. in SFO

appreciate my students.
saying like "miss you, did you come back? you were not in your classroom yet. where are you?" thanks 애들아..go ma wa ma ni.

9 59 in the morning at SFO

Willingly, go to Japan today.
Willingly, apologize about being late to come back to school.
happily, walk to my way like learning, teaching and loving.
so excited to go back to Korea now.

In terms of speaking in English in this year!
I became to think of working at airport is kind of cool job more than being flight attendant.
hmm
I got confidence about my English speaking.
I can do speak well people who works at airport when I really do try.
until I can express my feeling and idea without vocabulary frontier!

in terms of my health
belly dancing with Sun Jeong
running track again
mountain climbing with Cona

in terms of relationship
Just having fun with guys if I have a chance and If I feel like enjoying.
interactive communication with students
let things happen between us freely

in terms of money in this year
sweating, chasing my jobs more than thinking about going on a trip.
day class, nigh class and one private tutoring
opening 2,500 monthly saving account again
NO more accessories! No massages! No manicure! No more clothes!

Clear!

I am "I", not "i"










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